It’s cruel and intolerable

This thing they’re doing to me

Dangling that beautiful jewel before me

Snatching it away before my heart can take hold.

A love so clear and passionate

They’ve poured their black toxins,

It slowly consumes

Drops of deep scarlet snake their ways down our skin

Identical cuts, identical scars

I’ve lost the ability to feel.

Quietly bleeding, so silently seething

Empty shell, refilled to the brim with pain

Immobilized, I cannot breathe, I cannot move

All I can do is sit and stare into your so desperate eyes

While this blood-red ache throbs through my veins

So hot with anger at their injustice

And yet so frozen, so cold without your touch

Not knowing your mind

It’s the worst kind of torment

Will we let this tear us apart?

Secrecy is a vile revenge.

Nothing’s ever been easy for us

The judgment in their eyes burns cold holes through my skin

It seems all I ever do

Is learn how to love again.

Don’t they know,

Can’t they see

That the wider they push the distance

The more I’m going to want you beside me?

This love thing, so wrong

Yet so passionately right

Why can’t they comprehend the disparity?

The farther they push

The tighter I’ll hold on

Insane, maybe, but insanely right

I’m not letting go

This is only the beginning of the fight.

It’s an ellipse

An eclipse

A figment of your mind

Where lies the clarity in this mesh of realities?

Scorn darts from violet eyes

The laughter of the other ones

Grates deeply on her soul.

There’s no real way to escape

Darkness is his aura

His eyes, deep pools, scream ‘if you dare...’

The forbidden his only refuge.

Is there any way to truly live...

The passionate is her escape

Her escape from their realities

She tunes to the music in her soul

Close her eyes now, listen, breathe...

Darkness meets passion while violet eyes scorn

A smirk and a sneer never felt so ignored

The dark, the passion, meld one another

Entwine so delicately, so breakably strong

Deep gazes hold immeasurable meanings

While given at the dark of moonlight...

Pale skin shines white between shadows

They feel the chill of the breeze...

She’s tracing the lines of his face with cold fingertips

He’s reading her soul with his eyes...

Deception swirls with the pure despair

And forms this beautiful mess

Bound in black chains

No wish to be free...

This romance -

So scorned in cold realities.

What is this inverted shadow

That deafens all sound

And deadens all hues

Fades all the rays of light to grey...

Clarity is a thing of the past.

Did the birds cease their songs

Or do I just no longer hear them...

My eyes, so blinded

Search yet for a love-filled gaze

No one reaches...

Where is the warmth that will free me?

I reach for the sparkling future

So distant, an unreachable diamond

This shadow, so dark

It emanates, saturates

Takes my breath alive...

I find that the ones I don’t long for

Are the ones continually striving for my attentions

And who I happen to long for

Who I happen to care for

Seems to grow ever distant as the days prolong.

Heaven is reaching,

But I’m stuck here writing my own tragedy

Demure pen in a screaming, insane world

Nowhere to run

Nowhere to breathe

Nowhere to just stop, melt, feel the passion...

I’m such a void.

Why won’t you come live in my world?

So perfect, such a perfect smile

What hides behind that laugh?

So sweet, yet insinceres

What hides behind those eyes?

She flaunts a gracefulness that hides all insecurities

She’ll draw you in, then leave you hanging

Just look,

Don’t touch,

She’ll run away.

Beneath the flippant aura

The hundred-dollar smile

She’s broken, so black and blue

She’s grasping, fighting,

For a perfection that’s not real

She wants a thrill

Please just any thrill

Maybe it will take the pain away.

Can you hear her cries?

Can you see her tears as she walks away,

Hidden in her eyes as she mocks you?

Why won’t you hold her?

Can’t you see the desperate longing...

Why don’t you care enough to see?

She’s frozen deep

Why won’t you warm her?

Just take her in your arms.

“No one really cares...”

She’d help you with your pains

But she’s got too many of her own.

It’s a twisted beautiful tirade

Emotion in a sea of calm

A sensuous breeze,

A light warm scent on the air

Skies ablaze with a mix of orange passions

Flaming red streaks meld the clouds

Hot winds breathe the sultry darkness

Auburn fades to deep twilight

Diamonds are scattered,

The dark full of depth

Lit souly in sapphire eyes

A voice but a whisper

A candle lit new

Light footprints, a trail in the sand

Follow and live

Live the night to its fullest

Dance where no one can see.

Reach for those stars,

Abandon yourself to the breeze

Follow your music and hold no regrets

Waves of translucent splendor

They crash and resound at your feet

Live in your midnight

Reach for those stars

So pure and so dark

Dare to have no regrets.

As my heart traces pain

I’m alone in your eyes

Deep wonderings and stirrings beheld

Trapped in your gaze

But so far out of reach

My pain constricts so tight.

I’m wrapped in its bounds

Gasping for breath,

I watch myself in the reflection in your eyes

Crimson drops snake their way down my skin

So pale beneath,

So desperately cold,

I cry unassuming for your warmth.

I entreat to you now,

As I wither in your gaze

Be real for me, hold me,

As I’ve never been before

I close tightly my eyes

Arms wrapped desperately around myself

As I kneel on the cold, hard ground

This passion, it holds so much pain

I long to be taken away.

I entreat to you now,

Be real for me

Warm me

I long to be taken away.

I’m crying to hear the ethereal chorus

My heart now whispers so loud

Take flight, these quick passions

Flit away in the wind.

Secret songs paint new colors

In the wisps of the clouds,

They carry my soul to the skies.

Face in the moonlight,

Arms stretched to heaven

I’ve never known such delight.

Diamond tear falls, from sapphire eye

A crystallized drop of sweet joy.

I lie in the field of our utopian dreams

And watch as the stars travel by

Your intricate mind,

It’s entwined with my thoughts

Your voice now teases all my once-were realities.

Lead me onward

Take me away

Hold me

Keep me

Forever,

In your heart of hearts.

I dance,

My heart so full of passion and tears

Dark prayers echo my thoughts

Cravings clash and fall, they break

They shatter at my feet

Silently I kneel and cry

Atop the broken shards

Tears seep through my fingers, they drip

Splattering amongst the pieces

Of my broken soul

The pieces

They cut so deeply through my skin

I aspire intensely to be free

To live in company of the moon

A silhouette of dreams

I’m not contented...

The weight of my darkness weighs heavily.

I cry to someone, anyone who will here

Come and take me away

Steal away this dark abyss

This confusion of all thoughts

 Call me now, and set me free

I yearn to be unchained.