my heart sheds my tears

for my eyes have long stayed dry,

as my heart cries, slowly...

tears are like jewels

when shed within

they fall, and shatter,

scattering into splinters of my soul

translucent and unblurred,

shards of emerald, ruby, sapphire, diamond...

slowly molded together

a staned glass window of my love...

shining with a brightness unknown.

at one glance,

it looks nothing but a clear pane

yet pull closer, you'll see

the colors are blinding

you see but a little

the beauty -

speechless.

but the pain makes you gasp

you pull away, quickly.

once again, you dare look back

the pane is now clear

all that once was seen is now hidden

and ever so well...

daily, more jewels and crystals fall

creating this masterpiece.

one day,

when it is complete

it will be revealed to its lover

as my immortal gift.

lonliness intoxicates my every thought.

my heart silently bleeds...

is there no cure for this pain - this lonliness?

the tears slide down my face slowly

then drip from my lips,

to the page i write...staining the words.

they comsume everything that i am

everything i ever will be.

i've learned...

to acknowledge love is to accept the pain

and as one grows, so the other does...

laughing bitterly, my face still wet

i rub the warm salt water between my fingers

yet i hold them with a reverence

for such a large amount of pain...

i feel your heart

it's bleeding with mine.

your eyes are like diamonds that fill my soul

a fresher breath not tasted.

we are eachother's and it's the other we live for

together, creating a whole.

your love pierces my every thought

day by day, i am drawn to you

my heart knows no other,

and my soul screams for yours...

serenely, i watch as silver grains of sand pour through my fingers slowly forming a sparkling pile.

i squint at the sun as it shines from afar

like this passion, it will never grow dim.

breathing and feeling as no one will believe...

a rose graces my vision.

a single drop of dew on bright petal

a field grows before me-

from that single rose.

roses of red, crying for love

roses of white, a purity from this fire

roses of orange, the stark contrast of passion.

daylight fades to moonlight,

a lone star catches my eye

a painting of our love was painted

a vision seen by day.

our dreams unite, entwining with beauty

a shiver of the night's breeze touches my quiet being.

i look down at a passing shadow,

among the wavering roses.

slowly i start to pursue if,

it is my only thought.

this shadow in my vision consumes me

it's taken me to the light.

you are intoxicating, in this night of nights

i can finally see your smile.

your eyes meet mine and we are one

souls that never knew another.

finally, i can hold your hand...

our kiss, it made fools of them all.

we are together now, and nothing can stop us.

for we see what we have to gain.

a touch from your hand, now

stirs such a passion

i don't know what to do.

so in your arms i lie,

as we watch the dark sky

my eyes search for a middle star...

holding eachother till the night is deep,

we are living our dreams in reality.

can you feel the wind?

or is it our breath...

i now know i'd die to be with you forever.

my love and my life

i can look in your eyes

and i know

this is a sharp reality.

i cry with the rain, as it falls from the clouds...

my heart is ashamed, for what it cannot say

my mind dripping with intoxicating pain.

your voice soothes me...and yet makes it worse

and my tears betray my silence.

sweet, sad songs flow in the back of my mind

causing me to dream of the one i love.

it's okay for us to cry,

when reality overwhelms.

the steady dripping, of my pain

is the sound i fall asleep to

my quiet soul dreams of us...

a blood-red crystal

is in my hands

translucent, in the form of a heart.

my tears are gold, dropping on my fingers

creating a gold-link chain...

fastening the heart-chain around your neck

i back away, and look to the ground.

should i be bold enough to speak,

in this moment?

a blood-red heart,

a gold link chain.

i have given my love and my tears.

i wake up to an unknown breath,

and my heart is crying

for what it cannot have.

i'll be there, one day.

right at his side.

i will say...

i want to be your dreams -

in reality.

take hold of me...

for i'm holding my breath.

pull me yet deeper into you.

give me your warmth,

as i shiver with pain...

give me your breath,

so i can sing.

i close my eyes and all i see is your face

i close my soul, and feel the pain numb away.

our sands of time are so slow...

but our love grows with no bounds.

do you see what you're doing to me?

i'm crying,

though i do not shed a tear...

i'm ranting,

though i have not said a word.

my dreams are a contrast to light...

as i swirl the darkness with my fingers.

my visions leave me breathless,

a small glimmer of our passion.

flitting thoughts inside my mind...

speak only of you and your love.

what would you see...

if you could see through my eyes?

would you see what you mean to me?

you are like the first star

to come out at night

you are like the tears that free my soul.

you are like the cool breeze...

that whispers on summer mornings

you are as the kiss of a rose.

don't you see what i feel?

do you see what you're doing...

you're giving me the air i breathe.

so if you grow cold...

as our summer nights fade

just know that you aren't alone.

take me

break me

scatter me in the wind

heal me with your eyes

won't you burn me with your words?

where are you

in this maze of lights

hear my cries to be held

my thoughts crash like waves

my desires dance before your lingering eyes

each world has its players

to live the dramatic...

my world holds no limits

no boundaries to be met

scarlet passion flows freely from all wounds

i need no rescuing from myself

your haunting eyes are mine to dream of.

there's nothing here to stop me...

fill my wants, my needs that cry for you

touching, holding, healing, pure...

the battle isn't won

yet content,

we are

to free ourselves inside eachother

to find the warmth in eachother's arms

nothing can stop me now

and nothing ever will.

crying, dreaming, longing anew

tears scream from my soul

my heart cries to be held

i can't get through this passion alone

i'm reaching and trying

to come out ahead

yet my eyes stay filled

with frozen tears....undead.

dreams and pain are entwined so tightly

must i,

now pray to be held...

will you unite me?

my passion, it kills me

taking me whole

hold me - love me -

won't you take some away?

icy drops of wrenching joy tear me

this deed, it will never be done.

shame fills my vision and i fall at your feet

i just want a place to stay...

take me, love me, hold me, now

it will never take me away.

trapped within this exquisite pain

i long to leave it behind

dripping bitterness shimmers within

tranquil turmoil burns throughout.

empty lonliness abounding

i dream, to feel alive...

to stream with light and dance like roses

to feel the ice cold tears.

once able to trace dark lines

and deeply breathe your heat

i'm bleeding in scarlet solitude

frozen, till we meet.

i melt within the river of my love for you

i caress an illusion of your face...

your eyes pierce me like a storm

yet they pull me deeper into you.

i strain to become submerged in you

so deep there are no whispers

slowly, i walk to a sillouhette

cloaked in shadows like the moon

i reach for you, then disappear

we are naught but shadows now.

Touching the silence

I breathe in the shadows

And close my eyes to bitter burns.

Fires blaze now, so cold

Icy flames engulf my desires

My needs drip slowly to the ground,

Melted by the callous heat.

A shiver brings assurance

I'm alone, but I'm alive.

My frosted tears fall slowly

Leaving trails of silver

Melding in scars of once anguished pain...

Kneeling at pools, overflowing at my feet

Reflected, I see the stars.

A shower of diamonds created by love

Where else can such beauty be found?

Stepping into the pool, I'm slowly immersed

Shedding the ice, my scars, and the tears.

Now my passions are free to be lived for.

As I drown in the warmth,

Breathing with renewed ease

I'm lifted into light.

I'm screaming in silence

Pain dripping anew

Alone in this midnight

A deep blackness drifts slow...

Fragile, shrouded,

A glass figure twirls

To music unheard.

A breakable life is the only thing known

She's crying to be understood.

Shattered glass tears

Cascade to her feet

Passions and dreams continually hidden.

Slowly grasping for the stars...

Eyes holding depths of the unknown

Light a flame,

She lives for that glow.

Iridescence,

A glance,

An illusion of strength

She doesn't want to show who she is

For the fear that she'll break...

Shores of deep colored jewels

Swept away in a riptide of waves

An unstoppable sea...

Light a match,

Cast it away...

Cry for the future unknown.

It’s a beautiful surrender

In this eternity of fools

I take and break the empty thoughts

Yet they’re mirrored in my soul.

I strive to become shrouded

While I run from my barrage of confusion

Twirling and twisting thoughts never cease

As I search blindly for an escape.

Is there death in this soul

Or is it just a black twilight…

Can I make this a beautiful surrender?

My eyes see nothing

My heart only conflicts with my mind.

Someone else take me

I’m losing control

Where is my rationality?

Where does my heart lie…

My mind knows the answers

My heart will not heed

And this green emerald envy,

It won’t fade away…

Someone, please take me.

Make this a beautiful surrender.